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PRIS ♥My name's Prissy. My world comes together with rainbows and everlasting sunshine. Billy's my white horse and Friends are my company. Pink is not my thing because I've got too many sweets in my life. |
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Saturday, June 19, 2010
I don't want to love, anymore What I know is that I love you with all that I have and if that’s not enough then I’m sorry my love and my heart isn’t enough, then I’m sorry I’m not enough for you I know i'm not myself when all i can think of is food in the form of ice cream, chocolates, anything sweet and fattening. I know i'm not myself when all i can do when i step into a shop is to criticise everything i touch and leave town with nothing at all. I know i'm not myself when all i can react to the songs that once made me cry is to stare with a blank mind. I know i'm not myself when all i can remember of the dream the night before is that i cried. I've been feeling dead these days. I no longer feel myself. I feel so tired every day and every night. I've thought things over and over and over till i no longer know what i want exactly. At times, i really want to just hide in bed and cry all those silly things out but no tears fall and i feel so cooped i cannot breathe. I've been feeling like a total bitch these days that i've blocked many people on my msn, and have been appearing offline so i can save the trouble of being a bitch to anyone. Many past memories have been flooding my mind that there are some places i really want to avoid. I feel all the changes i've made, because he told me so, fading away. I don't know how long more i can hold on to this. If my heart had a brain and a mouth, i bet it'd tell me that it's so scarred that it no longer wants to love. But here, i am struggling to keep my feeling afloat till the dateline i gave myself. I'm not desperate for him, this i'm sure, i just want to know if all i've done has been nothing to him. I can recall no happy memories, only the nasty bitter ones he left me. Had i known all these would happen, i wouldn't have put myself into this situation, because from day 1, everything had changed. Or maybe, i shouldn't have hung on so tightly to the words he said. Or maybe, i'm just what he hates - weak. Because the ultimate lesson learnt thru all these - the more you put in into any relationship, the more you tend to lose. Labels: eletheowl 11:22 AM
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